What is the meaning of life?

I have been occupying myself with lots of actitivities, make myself tired, very tried.

Yes, i feel better when i meet up with my friends and i do sleep better at night. But i am not happy. Totally not happy.

Due to that, i am sick. I went to see a doc myself. unknowingly, i msg him. I dont know why do i initiate the msg to him.

I am not wrong in this relationship. He love me, he care about me, he made me love him so much, and when he dun want, he just say break off. Even as a fren, he didnt initiate a msg to see if i am doing well or not. Why am i so silly? he dont care about me. He dont feel sad that the relationship had ended and why am i the one keeping in touch with him, pinning hope, a hope that may or never come true.

I should give up and move on. Am i right? If things can be that easy, i wont be suffering here right.

What is the meaning of life? Work is not challenging with low pay, i am in love with someone who dont care and love me and my family is forever troubling with financial issues.

If the end date of the world is 2012, i dun think there is any thing to be afraid. Cos i am sick of life, sick of everything. I find no meaning in life or can anyone tell me what is so nice about life when i am bothering about all these things.

I would not end my life i know though i thought of that before many time. I do not have the courage...i do not have.