Simple life simple girl

I am a cry baby

2009-12-05T08:30:00.000-08:00

i am a cry baby. My sisters keeper, Sweet november and even cartoon "up", these are movies that made me cry. Sometime i wonder if my EQ is too low or is it too high. i would rather think it is high than low and i am able feel for the character in the movie.

I dont like watching romance movie and i dont know when it had started. Watched New moon today with lynn and Jenn and that was my first romance movie since long. Same as all the other girls, Edward was one of the reason to watch the movie and probably i am attracted to the storyline about the love btw vampire and human that will only happen in movie and story book. These are all fantasy. I used to dream of it and now i know it will not happen in real life or at least on me -"true and forever lasting love"

I cried today again. I miss him again. It had been 3 months and i realise i have not yet moved on. I am scared. Scared to fall in love again. I avoid guy that treat me nice and want to know me more. I tell my mum i am so afraid to be alone and want her to be well and healthy. I want her to be with me forever. I dont want to be alone again.

Saturday at home

2009-11-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

no volunteering session this sat, thus decided to stay at home. Have been staying at home for past 3 days, i must say i really have enough rest.

Stella just called to ask me out for dinner at marina sq. Probably will go out and meet her. She have been concern about me and asking me to go out. At this point of time, she can understand how i feel cos she is also out of love. But sometime, i do think that she might be gulity toward what had happen to me as she is the one who intro him to me. Honestly, i never blame her before. She have nothing to do with the failure of my relationship and she only intro me to him. Whether it will work out or not, it is not within her control. Eventually, i am glad that we have become closer.

Going for a nap now. a better day and night to come? hopefully

2nd day at hOme- MC

2009-11-05T18:41:00.000-08:00

This is my 2nd day at home. MC for the 2nd day. Doc had given me 8 packet of medicine. The medicine make me sleepy and i have slept for almost the whole day yesterday.

Being Sick made me even more upset. There used to be someone bringing you to doctor and someone calling you frequently to check on whether you have eaten ur medicine. But now, there is none. I know i responsible for my own body and i remind myself to eat medicine and drink water cos the feeling of being sick, only i can feel it and not others.

Surprisingly, he msg me yest night to ask if i am ok and hows my sore throat. Happy? Definitely.

People might think i should have done something to change the situations. Yes i did, i have applied more than 6 jobs. So far, income tax come back to me and i am waiting for the final panel interview. They describe it as legal loanshark. They say we will get scolding from customer. But if the pay is good, why not, that is my priority as of now.

I applied for a medical sales position refered by my ex bf best friend. He had been contacting me privately and helping me in anyway he can. But till now, no news on the job yet. He is still helping me to ask. Hopefully i can get an interview soon for that.

It rather demoralising when i didnt get the reply from the employer ; I just got a rejection letter from exxon mobil. I will continue to apply,hopefully, a job that i like.

My mum ask me to pay for town council bill this month. She say she will return to me. I knows its tough on her. When i grow up, then i realise how "powerful" money is in this society. Nevetheless, i still got saving to tap on as of now. I still can cope as of now. I am going to reduce my loan repayment amount, hopefullly, can generate more cash on hand.

Nobody read this blog?

2009-11-05T18:31:00.000-08:00

I have not give this blog address to anyone except Andy and Lynn. And i thought nobody will be reading this blog anymore. To my surprise, i saw Andy's comment.

To Andy: YOu have told me soo much soo much, but i know it just doesnt get through to me yet. And the day it get through, perhaps i will be ok. Thanks for the msg, my buddy.

Perhaps i just need to express how i feel through words and through blog. Hopefully, when looking back my entries, i realise i have move out of this. Hopefully soon.

What is the meaning of life?

2009-11-05T03:34:00.001-08:00

I have been occupying myself with lots of actitivities, make myself tired, very tried.

Yes, i feel better when i meet up with my friends and i do sleep better at night. But i am not happy. Totally not happy.

Due to that, i am sick. I went to see a doc myself. unknowingly, i msg him. I dont know why do i initiate the msg to him.

I am not wrong in this relationship. He love me, he care about me, he made me love him so much, and when he dun want, he just say break off. Even as a fren, he didnt initiate a msg to see if i am doing well or not. Why am i so silly? he dont care about me. He dont feel sad that the relationship had ended and why am i the one keeping in touch with him, pinning hope, a hope that may or never come true.

I should give up and move on. Am i right? If things can be that easy, i wont be suffering here right.

What is the meaning of life? Work is not challenging with low pay, i am in love with someone who dont care and love me and my family is forever troubling with financial issues.

If the end date of the world is 2012, i dun think there is any thing to be afraid. Cos i am sick of life, sick of everything. I find no meaning in life or can anyone tell me what is so nice about life when i am bothering about all these things.

I would not end my life i know though i thought of that before many time. I do not have the courage...i do not have.

today is a special day that is no more special

2009-11-03T19:03:00.000-08:00

I cried and teared in office today unknowingly and uncontrollably

Today is a special day for the past 3 years plus and it will be special for 3 years and 5 months if nothing went wrong.

Like life, there is a beginning and there is an end. The date we begin is also the date we ended and it had been a month since then

I miss him so so much.

i want to be remembered.......

2008-12-11T08:10:00.001-08:00

As a Happy Girl, a Girl who always Smile......(",)

BKK trip

2008-10-31T10:16:00.000-07:00

i shop, eat, see.....with WRTS (we run the show)

i wish to go BKK again....spend a total of $450 (acc+ expenses) and $178 (airticket)

just too lazy to blog and upload photo....so please refer to:

http://www.weruntheshow.blogspot.com/

Sixties look...mummy!!!

2008-10-31T10:13:00.000-07:00

I think i look so much like my mum.....arghhhhhh.....do you think so?

Bangladesh Business trip

2008-08-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

My first business trip to Bangladesh was an unforgettable one. No one will ever think that, i will have that chance to go Bangladesh for "Business"I count myself lucky as it was really an experience.

Dhaka is the city of Bangladesh, there are many cars and people on the street. No traffic light, you just hear horn. If you can drive there, driving in Singapore is just a simple task. Peoples there are nice and friendly. Of course, there are many beggars and poor childrens on the street. Though they are poor where you see children knocking on your car window asking you for money , they are discipline to not to snatch you stuff.

I feel like a star there as whenever i step out of the hotel, people look at me with curiosity. They must be thinking what is this girl doing here. Even the check in counter officer at changi airport ask me lots of qns when they know i am going there. What are they thinking?????? i am full of qns mark!!!

Overall it is a fruitful trip......(",)

Random thoughts again.......

People always like to complain about the high standard cost of living in Singapore. But they forgot that developed come with a price and condition. For me, i am contended with my life.

Random thoughts.....

2008-08-27T08:48:00.001-07:00

Life can never be that fun without them....Friends from 2B13-3B13

NUS Commercement day

2008-07-07T10:09:00.000-07:00

It had been months that i last update my blog.......anyway i was thinking nobody was reading my blog...so who cares whether i got update or not....in the end i cares....

Previously i talk about my grandma in the hospital. Great news!! she was discharged and now staying with my aunty. However, she is unable to walk now becos of stroke that is affecting her leg. She is rather depressed over this. Hope she will get well soon.

Tml is a special day for me....it marks the end of my education...my family will be attending the ceremony with me...Lynn, Andy and Eileen will be coming down to take photo too...looking forward to tml...excited excited!!!!

Watch out for photos in my next blog update... photo below.......(",)

Grandma is sick ...:(

2008-05-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

I went to visit my grandma in hospital today. She suffered mild stroke due to old age. I tried talking to her but my "Teochew" sucks. I dont even know how to have a simple conversation in Teochew and cant even express my feeling to her. Even a simple sentence like " how are u feeling now", i still have to ask my aunty.

I am really worried about her. Hope she get well soon.

Praying hard....

One week of Work

2008-05-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

Entering into the work force mark the beginning of my next phase in life.

Working would means greater responsibilities and stress. I need to start saving to pay off my school debt and start paying all my expenses. I admit i do not really like doing projects and studying for exam but it is definitely better than working.

First week of work is "stress less", still have to undergo training. But i realise the more i learn, the more complex i think the job is. Scary but excited at the same time. The people there are nice and i have a colleague that come in at the same time as me. So at least i have a companion. (",). It was a chinese speaking environment, i think my english is going to deteriorate though it is already bad to start with. (see the language i use in my blog, you should know le la). I really need to do some self study to improve my english language!!!! help!!!!

Looking forward to the long weekend!!!

Outings with Best Buddy Lynn san

2008-05-09T11:00:00.000-07:00

Since she is the only one who has my blog address, i got to write something good about her...hee...

We have known each other for around 7 years and i am glad that she is always there for me.

I always enjoyed her company. Some of the outing we had recently:

1) we went IMM on labour day. As usual, we went to our favourite $2 daiso to shop for cheap stuff...and i bought a formal skirt for my graduation from G2000....cheap cheap also $19 best buy....
here are some of the photo we took while on our way back to station. Well i look disgusting with spec and also under the natural bright lighting.......

2) We had a "candle light" dinner at Fish and Co at the Glass house. Well i really like the atmosphere there....the food and service was good. We had a great but rather

challenging chat over there since we have to fight against the loud background music(they just sing too loud). Guess she is having sore throat now....since we are both tired, we went home shortly after that.

Oh ya i got to mention this, this is the first time i wear a dress out for the purpose of shopping and eating out. I seldom wear dress as i think it is rather formal and uncomfortable. I believe it will be good to change my image some time and not always wear jeans or pant. But I guess it is rather hard also as the heels are killing me.....i wonder who invented heels....or should i blame my foot for being that big....

below are some of the pic we took at Fish and Co

seafood platter and swordfish collar

card from buddy

2008-05-09T10:55:00.000-07:00

I recieved a card from Andy. Andy never failed to send me a birthday card on my birthday. Though we seldom meet up now as we are both busy with work, he always remember my birthday.

More on Birthday- SPSU (gers)

2008-05-09T10:34:00.000-07:00

Continue from my previous post, i have another celebration with Agnes, Kai xin, Charlene and Aizhen.

We have dinner first at Thai express, after which we make our way to esplanade. The gers give me and aizhen a surprise birthday cake at esplanade. (poor kaixin have to wait there and she burned her hand while handling the candles ). We took many crazy photo together, we had a fun and crazy time outside such a cultural place...irony issit it...thank you gers for the nice presents and the pleasant surprise. I really appreciate it.

photo with the girls

More on Birthday- Class 3B13

2008-05-02T22:20:00.000-07:00

I have a wonderful mini birthday celebration with different group of friends...

1) Me andXiao wei have an early birthday dinner at The Manhattan Fish Market. We are really surprise by thge good service they provided. They sing us a very loud birthday song as requested by our friend. Making us so embarrassed. hahaha. After which they give us a brownie as a birthday cake and plus a photo. After which, we went over to clarke quay for a drink. guess what that was the first time i went to cannery...so gu gu right....hahaha...i enjoyed myself that day. Thanks for the present and the special dinner gathering...i really enjoyed myself. I am glad to have a group of friend celebrating my bday with me....

group photo

at coffee express the girls are in shock

The girls (happy birthday to xiao wei too)

<--- the guys, their pose are weird

Finally exam is over

2008-05-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

Finally the exam is over le...i can "unofficially" declare myself as graduate. The last paper was really a tough one and now i can only pray that i can passed the paper. I really need luck this time.

lots of thing happen to me for the past few days....i got no time to update now...stay tune k !!!!

happy birthday to me

2008-04-29T01:07:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to me....happy Birthday to me...

Well, i decided to start up a blog on this special day of mine...my birthday (29 april)...guys please take note and remember k....

I have received a numbers of sms from all my friends wishing me happy birthday. Thanks to all of them, it really make my day and i really appreciate it.

well, it is suppose to be a fun and happy day for me, but it is definitely not for me since i have to study for my exam tml. and guess what instead of studying now...i am blogging...hahhaa...i think i am already in my holiday mood. just wish the exam to be over soon and i shall say bye bye to books and exam forever. I guess i will miss them once i step into the work force. I will miss having lecture, doing projects, loafing and all my friends in NUS.

I must say that i still have some programme for myself later at night. My parent are bringing me out for a birthday dinner at some place and my boyfriend will be joining us too. I am really fortunate to have people who love me. My boyfriend even gave me a big surprise on 29 april 12 am sharp by appearing at my house. I was really sleepy reading all my lecture note, when i was about to doze off, my bf called me and he lied to me that he was at home. At 12 am sharp, he asked me to open the door and i saw a small cake with a little small candle in front of me. I am really touched and appreaciate what my bf had done for me. He gave me a Charles Stefano necklace and it was gorgeous, up to date, he had given me 3 necklace and i love all three. I really love it and thank you darling. He is making me loving him even more each day.!!!! (mushy mushy)

<---- family never failed to be by ur side

I guess i got to get busy and start revising for my wireless communication exam le....its my last paper and i hope to give my best shot for it. Good luck and Jia you!!!!